roocf's Blog

im so lonely all the time
because im scared of getting hurt but people i hardly leave the house
and because i hardly leave the house i hardly see people
and im so lonely all the time
i hardly talk to people online either
i just cant handle being lonely anymore
i hate this
its a loose loose situation
if i see people i may get hurt
if i dont see people im lonely
i just dont know what to do
i go to a art group which is a couple of hours a week but thats about it really.
*sighs*

Locked up

locked up
out of sight
keepme safe
shuned from the world
just another statistic
freak outs
hide outs
its all the same
just one more day
maybe
locked up
out of sight
keep me safe

UNTITLED

lets go through the motions
where we smile at all
whilst inside we beg
for the end to come
where we all go home
to our seperate lives
where our paths wont cross
lets go through the motions
and prentend it will last
with bows onop
where fairies exist
where we're all care free
and forwns arent real
where laughter heals and eases pain
lets go through the motions

Wingless angel

im a wingless angel
trying to fly
once again im floating
in the deepest of seas
no boyancy aid
no life boat near by
im a wingless angel
trying to fly
i close my eyes
and dream im not here
i wish and hope
for you to be near
im a wingless angel
trying to fly
im starting to drown
to not hear your vioce
the sea has turned cold
no warmth to be found
im an angel with wings
flying high in the skly
.....
im a wingless angel
trying to fly
my dreams didnt last
my wishes all went
once again
im a wingless angel
trying to fly.

I HAVE A SECRET.

i have a secret
im not gunna tell
you'll never find out
what my mind really says
its in a box
only i have the key
i have a secret
im not gunna tell
i'll lend you the key
just one little peak
you wanted to know
what my secret was
i had a secret
and told you what it was
you know hwt ait is now
you look kinda sad
im sorry for my secret
i'll put it back in its box
i have a secret
im not gunna tell.

ok so in a little while i have to go back to the doctor to get myself signed off again so that my ESA money stills come through and if it doesnt come through it means i cant pay my rent and i cant afford my car.

ive only been up a little while and already ive been shouted at for scuffing my shoes.

right now all i wanna do is cut but i know i cant because it will dissapoint so many people and im sick to death of being a disapointment to people.

i just cant win.